It's official, roller derby has entered my psyche. I had my first roller derby stress dream. What exactly is a derby stress dream, you may ask? Why, they are not unlike those wonderful school stress dreams we've all had at some point. You know the ones I'm talking about; you can't find your locker/can't remember its combination or my personal fav, I have one exam to pass so I can graduate and I haven't been to the class all semester. I still to this day have those and I've even become frustrated in my dream because I'm not in high school or college anymore and I already graduated from both!
This particular dream, I was late for practice, trying to strap on my gear as fast as I could except I couldn't find my elbow pads. I found every other player's and none of them matched or even fit me. They were too big or too small. I was in a panic trying to find my own, frantically looking up at the clock and watching as practice was going on and I was unable to find my stupid elbow pads. Yes, I know it sounds silly but I tell you it did not make for a restful night's sleep.
I suppose there could be a deep meaning somewhere in there. Stop comparing myself to other skaters, or to let go of the mental blockages, or maybe that I think about derby way too much. It's probably all of that. However stressful it was, I was surprisingly happy about having that dream. I guess it cements the belief that derby enters your entire being, infecting your system. It gets in your brain, your blood, your bones, and your subconscious.
I just hope I don't have any dreams about showing up to a bout with only my pads on.