So, I made it happen...now what? I passed my minimum skills assessments, I'm officially over one hurdle of what I've come to learn will be many. I suppose I can answer my question simply and not-so-simply. I suppose I could just say that I'm on to the next step, the next "make it happen" moment. But what do I want to make happen? Who do I see myself becoming as part of this league? What is my next goal?
I will say this; practicing with our veteran skaters is such an honor and humbling experience. I am not saying I ever thought I was super awesome but I see now how these ladies strive to be better and continue learning. During our scrimmage-type drills is where I am most in awe of them and it's also when I often find myself lost and being ineffective. This leads to a great amount of frustration at myself. I've been a spectator at a few bouts now and thought I had a pretty good grasp on what happened during a jam but actually being on the inside is a whole different experience. I see how complicated it can be, trying to implement strategy that incorporates both offense and defense. Which brings me to the visualization aspect of this. I do believe in the idea that you can "see" yourself performing a task as you want to and "make it happen." The result may not be immediate but in time, it will become a reality. Right now my default vision of myself is more along the lines of a large, awkward bird on roller skates.
It's up to me to put in the work and I know eventually it will "click." I can only get better and understand the game by going to practice and soaking up as much as I can from our veteran skaters and coaches. I will probably ask some questions that seem dumb and I know that our veteran skaters experienced what I'm going through(though by looking at them, you'd never know). This is a journey where I can learn as much as I want, get out as much as I put in, and be as good as I can see myself being.
All my awkward derby love,
The Worst Noel